I Looked For You

I  looked for you on every corner,
I waited for you on every train,

I searched for you in the face of a stranger.

But I did not find you among the sleeping. 

I did not see your eyes behind those carnival masks.

And like a shadow, you were always just  around the corner. 

But I swear I heard your voice on the wind,

I swear I could smell your perfume.


I swear I almost caught a glimpse,


And heard your footsteps walking in mine.


And for a moment through the eyes of a mirror, I could see you smile. 

I thought maybe I could pretend, 

Maybe I could forget. 

Maybe I could close my eyes and sleep.

And so with my hands in front of me, 

like the blind I caged my heart;

A prison of a thousand arms and

A thousand years.

But each poem that I wrote was for you, 

Each song was a yearning to find you.

And in the end, it was death that awoke me.

It kissed me on the cheek,

and shook the dust from my face,

reminding me that time is short. 

This world fears love and paints it irrational,

and so I choose to be crazy with love. 

Let love be the thing that consumes my heart

with  madness to the very end.